Monday, November 29, 2010

The Road I Walk - a story to help you understand

For those who haven’t walked this road I’m on, wanting a child, a family, but having to put that dream on hold for reasons beyond my control, here is a story I thought up that may help you understand me and my situation a little better:

Imagine the most amazing possession you could ever own.  That could be very different from one person to the next, but I’m using a Ferrari for my example.

So you knew when you were a kid that you wanted a Ferrari.  You dreamed about it, you played and pretended what it’d be like to have your very own.  As you get older, you make decisions, take courses and plan your life knowing that if you stay on that track, you will one day have your Ferrari.  Finally you’re all grown up.  You’ve got everything you need to have this dream finally come true!

You head over to the dealership and you are so excited!  You see some of your friends in the parking lot who share your excitement!  Some friends have already purchased their Ferrari’s and are there encouraging you and teasing you about what you’ll all do when you have yours.  You are so excited!  This is it!  That Ferrari is just on the other side of those doors and you are READY!  You see some of your friends walk in ahead of you; they smile and wave as they walk through those doors.  You finally get to the door, you can hardly contain your excitement... then a guard steps in front of you.  You’re a bit startled so you try to step around him, but he puts out his arms and says: “I can’t let you in there”. 

You’re confused!  He’s letting other people through.  You ask him: “Why can’t I go in?”
He replies: “You have to wait.”
You ask him: “Why?” and “How long?”  But all he says is: “You have to wait.”
You’re a little upset.  But you decide to wait patiently for a while.   Surely you won’t have to wait too long.

As you wait, you see a few of your friends come out of the store with their new Ferrari’s.  You congratulate them!  You know they’ve been planning for this day too and you are truly happy for them!

You continue to wait. 
You wait 4 months...no go. 

8 months...still nothing.

Soon you’ve been waiting years!  And you are still not allowed in!

In the mean time, many of the people you know have picked up their Ferrari’s, some who planned for it, like you, and some who had the cash and figured ‘Why not?’  Then there are those who walk into the store by mistake and get roped into buying one even though they haven’t planned for it at all.  Some of them don’t have a garage or even their drivers’ license!

You decide to look into a private dealership to see if you can get your Ferrari another way.  You tell them what you’re looking for.  Many people have come to them with the same problem.  They offer that they could put in a special order, but there is a large fee, TONES of paperwork, no guarantees, and an indefinite waiting period.  So over the next few months, you dish out money and go through mountains of intense paperwork.  At the end of it all, you are put on a waiting list.

And you continue to wait....

If you feel like this story ‘leaves you hanging’, you have a very minimal idea of what it is like to walk in my shoes.  But believe me, when I know the end of this story the WORLD will know the end of this story!!!

3 comments:

  1. What a awesome way of putting it my dear sister . I love you guys tonnes , and pray everyday you guys get the Ferrari of your dreams soon . I know its hard to wait patiently for God's timing when everyone around dont seem to have to wait . You are the bestest auntie in the world and will be the greatest mommy in the world . I am proud and blessed to call you my sister (((((hugs))))

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  2. I am so proud of you (and Jared) and the way you have waited on God- and listened to His direction! We are praying, and will continue to pray, for you two to become three- either through a "public" or private dealership :)

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  3. Jaymi and Jared
    I am praying that the Lord will surprise you in the very near future with His ultimate plan for you. Keep hanging in there and keep blessing others a long the way.

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